CHAPTER 18: BROKEN
I'm tired
That night I stayed up with Zayn.. The whole night.. Comforting him.. Making him realize what importance he had in all of our lives... He was broken...
"I can't believe... And I thought I liked her...." He said..
"I'm so sorry Zayn..." I said.. He was looking down sitting on his bed.... I was sitting beside him... rubbing his back making him feel loved..
"No! She was such a jerk..... I didn't know... The stuff she said to you Mona... I'm so sorry!" He said... "I can't even look you in the eyes..." He was looking down..
"Zayn please.. It's not your fault.. I'm perfectly fine.... Her words did nothing to me at all..." I said.. "You just stop being like this.... It hurts me..."
"That's what the matter is... You've been so hurt because of me.. Every thing related to me always bring tears to you eyes..." He said.. "You're so different... You actually care.. I'm so sorry" He hugged me soon after saying this.... The way I hugged him when I was hurt... Watching Zayn like that was unbearable for me...
"Zayn please" I begged him for stop being broken..
"Mona Please.." He said hugging me even tighter.. "It feels good inside your hug..." .... That's exactly what I felt in his arms...
"You really are my best friend" He said "Love you Shona..." He smiled with tears in his eyes..
"I love you too Zaynoo..." I said wiping my tears away..
"So sorry for everything she said..." He apologized..
"Don't...." I said
I was his friend and nothing else.... I accepted that.. Time rolled on... We got back to normal.. One day Sam asked me to go with him back to home..
"What??" I asked. "Why do you want me to leave this job?"
"Because... I can't leave you here alone with Zayn.. Because I don't think that Zayn is a good guy..." He said.. I looked away... "Plus.. I wanna meet your mother when you are with me..."
"Don't talk about Zayn..." I ordered him.. "And meeting my Mom..............."
"Oh come on Mona..." He interrupted me.. "You know you're not happy here... Just come with me..." He was right... Seeing Zayn every day was very hard for me... He didn't love me... That was the reality... I was unhappy... I agreed with him... We were going to leave the next day..I didn't let Zayn know because I knew that Zayn would never let me go...
Next day at 10 a.m I opened the door.. I saw..
Zayn was about to knock with eyes closed and a beautiful smile... He felt the door opening so he opened his eyes.. Looked at me from bottom to top... I was ready.. with a bag in my hand... His smile faded away..
"Wh- Are you going somewhere?" He asked..
"Home!" I said leaving the room.. and waking away... I couldn't face him.. He started following me... But I kept on moving.. I couldn't look him in his eyes...
"Why?" He asked worriedly .. "Did I do something to annoy you?"
"No!" I stopped and turned around... "No Zayn...." I said softly
"Than?" He asked.. His eyes were blood red..
"I" I paused.. "I'm going with Sam..." I looked away... We paused for 2 seconds... His face was expressionless...
"You're leaving me?" He asked in a shocked tone..
"Yes..." I said and looked away.. I wasn't able to look into his gorgeous eyes.... I knew I would fall in love with him all over again.. I didn't want that.. plus his eyes looked so painful... I would have died if I had stared into his eyes...
"Why?" He asked very softly.... I paused for 5 seconds.. Looked at him....
"Because....." I paused.. "I'm tired of watching you every day... and pretending that I don't love you..." I looked deep into his eyes... "I'm tired...."
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